SELF

SELF
WORKING ON PHOTOGRAPHIC CONCEPT  WHICH I THINK  IF I PAINT THEN THE THOUGHT MIGHT BE  LOST THEIR ESSENCE I ALWAYS LIKE TO PAINT BUT SURVIVAL POLITICS ,AFFAIRS AND THE STRUGGLE OF LIVING DOESN'T ENCOURAGING ME TO PAINT THEY ALREADY CREATED DIGITAL MEDIA TO EXPRESS .

motherfather

motherfather

17 \01\2014

I don't know what is right and what is wrong .i use my ability to understand things as they are ...my priority and my efforts need to understand consequences in me . My breath accepted by my parents ... and like everyone i don't want to die .i want to be old need to preserve for that age my kid mind.

" बाबा " आमटे ह्यांचा ज्या ज्या वेळी नुसता विचार येतो.......

 " बाबा "  आमटे ह्यांचा  ज्या ज्या वेळी नुसता विचार येतो स्वतचा घालून घेतलेल्या स्वतच्या मर्यादा स्पष्ट होतात थोडस रोमाचित  (अरी मनापासूनची इच्छा ) होवून बोललो तर मला नेहमीच अस जाणवत माझे अश्रू का नाही निघत ? स्वतःला माणूस म्हनाववून घेण्याचा मग विचार ,प्रयत्न  सुरु होतो आणि कुठेतरी चार भिंतीत , कधी बसस्टiपवर तर कधी कुठे मधेच रस्त्यात असतो उभा मी आणि स्वतःच्याच न पेलवणाऱ्या दुखाचे अश्रू बाहेर पडतात शी.......पुन्हा स्वतःचा शोध सुरु होतो स्वतःतच गुंतत जातो आणि कोपर्यात जावून बसलेला पाहतो ....जिथे बाबांना अंगणात सूर्य दिसला तिथे मला कुठे सूर्य  किरण येण्यासाठी छेद  हि दिसत नाही कसा दिसणार........ स्वतःच्या अश्रूंनी मान जी खाली गेलेली असते माझी .क्षुद्र म्हणजे आणखी काय ? 

love stories are part of life

My second love story was very short >  i made her smile, she caught my tears .

its actually third and the real second i still haven't express Yet for some reasons. The very filtered reason is just i am not able to keep her . 

18TH DECEMBER 2013

 paul klee ) (paulee)

Aai (mother) 

  finally

My mother's first birthday after I found the date.

 and its os coincident  that my most favorite artist Paul Klee's birthday also on the same day :) 

for me Its amazing feeling

two days ago I thought about  momdad  I was thinking about how I take these loss to feel. I don't wanted tothought that I lost them earlier or something like that, but when I thought about loss......... I turned myself into theirs voice I started tounderstood my mother positively after, because before I lost her there was simple taken for granted relation we had.

she was simple human.

and, i as her child who wanted to live my life outside with friends and my those connected world, I come to home for two three time food or my needs and study that's it.. .. what they told or what I felt through themin me, they lost them self for me they knew very well how I am, so they told me you lost us cause we don't want that you think ever from now you lost something important when you feel lost in your life.you lost with us your everything.Now you just need to think about to gain.I was not aware nor even had any idea that I am going to lostthem this soon

i was in the second year of my art study i always been working and working even i don't know when i left my home and came to stayed near of my college with my friends ,my nature is not to worry and even i am not kind of person to care someone ,cause i don't think about others expectations from me i just stick with my presence cause there i am working and i have to concentrate with my intuitiveness to give that moment complete attention and the other side that's the important role of moment as i know it has a amazing power to gives you strength for whatever comes you next .and in those all moment i had only art . and that's the thing i never chose for any reason to keep me away consciously what things are going to happen with me.art accepted from me everything my care,my hate just everything without any questions . i even didn't did for my peace r my relief cause i always able to keep my art incomplete cause i don't feel to force things :) if its incomplete its incomplete if it gives you feel after completeness its complete in incomplete that's it.  I didn't studied Klee that much, even any other artists I just like to go through visuals more and more i always playing the unconscious  game with me every time it's never ending thing for me,That game is whatever i remember that's my love . its easy and it's don't make me limited with things of my choices which i accepted to take a breath.They don't give me feeling of machine ..i still remember those feelings within me. Sometimes when i try to tell someone any place-name or any name that moment ,i forget the important name and i realized maybe,those things are not to remember for that specific name it was essence to experience .:) so  i always feel and its very close to my belief the essence of things are always PURE my mothers my dads my every connections which i am having through the vibrations . life's need is the understanding of those things ,where i am trying to pushing my thoughts to someone for just my recognition ...... like today i always had this feel when i faced my bad moments so i chose them to celebrate  at the morning or from the some of past days i was happy that i found my moms birth date but that's like gift for me Klee born the day........so what i choose that i gain something to remember my moms birthday because i am not good with dates :) """""""""""""HAPPY BIRTHDAY KLAI """"""""""""":)  ITS MIXTURE OF PAUL KLEE AND THE AAI (AAI MEANS MOTHER IN MY MOTHERTOUNG ) MY MOTHER LOVED MY DAD AND I RESPECT HIM  :) 

Digital Work in Photoshop

The Week

Sometimes life force's needs silence to feel how much ability I deserve here, How much place I encounter for being myself , I daily travel .I Fight with my hunger, I See public same doing in travel with me some of are just to next stop,some are beyond me, that one day I felt common people (who working daily like machines 8 to 5 OR 10 to 7 whatever ) have in them a hundreds elephants strength ,to keep this world better they are balancing the world ,even when they cut trees ,they spit on walls ,they feel worst about their everything.They have power something within to bare those all things.I was numb little tears (maybe those are personal)and I started to feel and respect them as they are I see sometimes my gatekeeper wants talk to me ,I feel a mountain respect in him about me , it's so hurtful when I just walk away and to tell him goodnight and he close the gate .Sometimes I Just don't get out of those little feelings which I feel for others.They have so power to break you entire .I need conclusions myself , sometimes I need to neglect own progress for the same thing to keep alive.maybe its inner fear ,maybe it takes time to answer maybe the question is confusing to get myself.or i need to realize one thing that they are not common they have power to break you in piece with their just silence .

Blind

Blind
acrylic and ink on paper

flower

"Flower"

"SKULL" ink and acrylic on paper and tried to captured of running mind 19 oct 2013

"SKULL" todays work ink and acrylic on paper and try to capture of running mind

feeling of yesterday's travel in the middle of noisy Diwali market

These days I am more and more aware about my peace moments 

or I could say those moments helping me with their existence 
within me ...just I feel every day's new experience from the ordinary things .
Sometimes we have to break our old things and keep trying to maintain that routine. but its not going to happen cause i help to create my own surroundings and I always feel peace when i am getting the conclusion about that .......its a not a part of routing its a acceptance of that moment. 
peace is not about the silence its in the middle ..
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Todays alert and action of my attention — at Bandra Railway Station.

Todays alert and action of my attention

6/ 11/2013

विचार न करता पूर्णपणे शरीराच्या मुख्य अंगांचा वापर व्यक्त करण्यासाठी माणसाला वेडं म्हणतात ना !

I love you .. 3 november 2013

What you have done, 
Is Honestly, the Same thing, 
I thought .
I appreciate you
And giving the full credit, 
From my side. 
But it's not enough . 
Because I loved you .
And I didn't even tell you.
It was me. And,
You .
You are the first girl.
To whom 
I didn't express my love. 
Now , I understand .
What was the reason
 ......................
 I never told myself, 
In front of the mirror 
Or even to My shadow ... 
I love you .. 
...........................3 November 2013

1 nov 2013

I thought something ,
I forgot .
Yes I thought ,
Same time I am trying to reach to that thought .
But I am forcing me to forget that  indirectly .
Everything irritates me
But I thought something
Now I stop ,
I am hungry ..
I start to eat and i bite my tongue     .
I am still thinking .
I feel desperate.
I complete my food .But,
I forgot to pick my mobile

The road is people now.
air is cool,
I took my breathe deep
feeling tongue pain....
I should buy some energy drink .
Or, my favorite five star Cadbury .
But ,there is something merged in me.
I believe ..
i am full of unforgettable moment ,
they teach me not to worry
in real life .
there is always new way,
to remember those moments .
they are in me.

28th october 2013

28th october 2013
I constantly  feel Wherever I travel.
<^>
My needs were actually very less than I thought.
Even I take walks on the road .
I see things .
I love air travel.
I always want to be an outsider.
The home, the studio
Whatever ...
Makes me freeze,
Of course...
The drawings give me peace.
Because I draw my black blood .
I turn this into red with my with my natural moments .
But beyond that I feel .
Peace should be a something .
Feeling that never experienced before .
Sometimes peace is undervalued.
But a good , calm, air Makes me alive ..
Blood need good air to be red. Otherwise, It turns black .

21/10/2013

I am everywhere ,I am nowhere.
I walked  today ,I saw things as a human.

२० /१ ० /२ ० १ ३

जन्मपत्रिका ,त्यातल्या विविध राशी ,त्यातून  आडवे येणारे क़हि चांगले असणारे ,कडक तर काही उत्कर्ष साधणारे  असे नाना परीचे ग्रह यांचा आपल्याशी संबंध असेलही … पण तेच जर दुसऱ्याचे जुळवत घेत बसलो की तो  खरा  माणूस जवळ असूनहि समजून घेण्याचं मधल अंतर वाढत असल्याचा खरा भास होत जातो . मधेच कुठेतरी आपणही हरवत असल्याचा .

5th september 2013

Love cannot replace,
but it can be overlapped,
like a layer's of earth..
My dad once told me
that our skin leak everyday
and comes new
I had never seen that .
However,
something's I would like to believe
like I believe poems.........5th september 2013