Kakol

Kakol 
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You know "The Gogh "
Sure.

He wrote the letters 

They are very personal .
but,
Tell me 
If you had read them all 
Did he mentioned there 
He had the hard life
?
 Did he mentioned 
Ok
 If he mentioned 
Those are letters
Right.
Letters 
we 
believe
For
The way of
 expressions
 our 
Personal feelings?

You know what
 I don't see anything 
Pain 
 Or suffering 
Things 
in his works 
First
I see his efforts ,
 Urge to complete something
 and the understanding
things.
 with his own Values
towards life.
 The style
 he got 
That's achievement .
of His truth
 I feel.

 Maybe 
I am using big words. 
But,

Give me  some time
 to understand.
Because,
Hidden 
 layers I don't want to ignore.
 It's my period of 
express 
More 
&
 more.

 He all-ways tried 
He wrote letters.

                                                              He created 
                                                                Paintings,
                                                                drawings.
                                                                     But

I am more thank full for his brother


Being an important part of his life.
He kept him alive at least 10 years 

He didn't died naturally .
So his works were incomplete somewhere. 
Or may I dare to think like that?

 Art 

even doesn't succeed too
 Captured his beliefs?
 That he thought? 
There is wrong that he sought.
 I don't accept it as a human being
Suicide
For now 
Anyway. 
But,
He completed some steps Very gratefully.
 Paulee used the word genius. 
After he saw his works and letters. 
In the exhibition.
I "believe" 
paulee.
 Because he was / is 
humble.

He gave the credit to fish. 
For
his inspiration
.
 He wrote that,

 Yes.
 And I wrote about the layers upside^ 
The humbleness,
 towards our beliefs. 
He is teaching me.
The layers,
 The use of love 
He makes me smile.

 You also smile,
 right?
Smile 
.
I am sure its more great to create a smile on your face
beside to pend money on Monalisa.
because its smile on mother

KaKol

Is it possible?

Some night I walk alone 

Without fear .

 Art Sometimes

More Stressful.. 

Kakol !

 You hear me? 

SOMETIMES I FEEL

 My pain ENCOURAGE 

Me to enjoy 

THE FRUIT OF LOST. 

What should I do?

How I feel about myself 

When I feel ......

I just thought

When I saw you 

I have learned

How the pain feel strongly 

Then,

We have to understand the pain.

 It's not true Right?

 I saw them dying 

Do I illustrate them? 

I did. 

I found peace.

 I GOT MY RELIEF.

 DID THEY? 

NO. 

I LOST THEM.

 Did I enjoy Ed THEM?

 I AM NOT EASY FOR ANSWERS.

Whenever I find the moment .

I Tell PEOPLE.....

 WHY DEAD PEOPLE ARE MORE IMPORTANT?

IF ALIVE ONCE ALREADY 

YOU SEE SUFFERING?

The answer I found for myself .

Maybe,

They believe the god concept

 more than life. 

I TRIED TO UNDERSTAND.

I TOOK MY Decisions 

AFTER. 

I don't see me in any Relations. 

I see just Life and dead CONCEPT is 

Alive beside us.

Animals 

Are

Animals

We call us human.

 I should try to make myself.

Kakol? 

You Hear me?

stop me to illustrate 

The reference pain 

And 

BE WITH me 

To understand yours.

 Always.

Thats enough ...

.

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Water,light red ,ink

Snake and poison

water.Ink and light red

Snakes

snakes
Water, light red ,black ink on card paper 

20\3\2014

Cage means so many vertical windows of hope .

..................................................................

cage is the thing we have common.

To let us understand and allow to peace inside .

Why outside i need to loud .why even inside i think loud

They are doors to new find ,

They are sounds of near.

They are dreams to gear

The women

The women
water,light red,ink and scratches  on paper
and photograph with self

The women

The women
water,light red,ink and scratches  on paper

Silence realize the....

Silence realizes the 

Details 

Night realize me the

 Details in the music. 

Philosophy comes after.

Without any reason 

The guilt I mix in the color 

The pain is after. 

Like the poison creates

 Black thick blood. 

Walk is numb. 

And twirl 
I feel 

The mind state of ours.
..........
...
.

She died with my anatomy. 

I slept alive.

Tried to work with my words .

Tried to work with my words
Water,ink,light red Pencil

कधी कधी प्रकर्षाने वाटत आता barter system पुन्हा कशीतरी सुरु व्हावी .

कधी कधी प्रकर्षाने वाटत आता barter system पुन्हा कशीतरी सुरु व्हावी

लोकशाही ,भांडवलशाही फ़क़्त ह्या कॉमापुर्तेच वेगळे असेतर  ते वेगळे कधी होण्याची शक्यताच कमी जोपर्यंत  पैसा असणार .  कदाचित योग्य होईल अस म्हटलं तर  ते एकमेकांचा हात  हातात   घेउन राहिलेल्या हाताने मूल्यांच्या ,मुद्यांच्या  वादांचे भांडवल आपल्यापुढे करतच राहणार

थोडासा श्वास  इथून ,थोडासा तिथुन. 

थोडा संघर्ष इथून,थोडा,तिथुन. 

थोडी  करमणूक इथून,थोडी तिथुन. 

थोडी फसवणूक इथून,थोडी तिथुन. 

थोड स्वतःच झीझण इथून,थोड तिथून . 

मरण मात्र आपल स्वतःच 

त्यातून इतरांना 

इंटरेस्ट मिळण्याची शक्यताच कमी 

लोकशाही भांडवलशाही 

यांचा एक एक हात जो 

एका हातात आहे . 

death always meditate with us at very last moment

death always meditate with us  at very last moment

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Ink and Water on paper

Ink and water on paper

How the love makes me Free .

I love you ....

Is the secret question

I feel

It doesn't demand sometimes yes or no.

And ,

That time

It's just to make that someone special

To encourage to realize,

How that question made curious

to reply  i love you too .

I love you has so many hidden answers

About the situation happened Before the decision

And,

So many questions for after Situations.

The acceptance,

is the shortest answer.

For the future .

Sometimes answers lost the main question

Even encourage us to forget our Situation of acceptance.

I love you is the answer of feeling's.

Feelings needs descriptions about faith

Fate.

Occasionally,

There Love struggles.

Sometimes I love you is the greatest confusion of life

So I made that feeling

For the moment .

Where we both are happy with it

And ,then

We are free For everything.

The woman

The women
Pencil,ink,acrylic 

9/3/2014 एक तनहाई थी

एक तनहाई थी,

जो अपनों से छुपा ,चुरा कर

खुश रहता था ।

अब ये है,

जहा यादें कुछ ज्यादा है ।

खुदको मिटते हुए महसूस

कर मरना और खुद को ख़त्म कर

देना।

घरपर ही देख लिया।

सांसे तो बाहर निकल दी।

मुझे कुछ और न मांगी

फुरसत मिल गयी।

तनहाई गहरी हो गयी ।

मगर कुछ पाने कि ,

ख़ुशी वही उतनी ही है ।

     

Because of School peon and his tiny daughter i found myself differently . :)

Exactly the way to back home, I found out my school peon was crossing the road his both hands were busy one was I think he held the can of kerosene and other hand he held carefully his tiny daughter. Usually I times I see him on his part time work, he sells the vegetables.I smiled to myself and was thinking about to call him to just say hello.. But when I went very near to him I heard he was busy to entertain his tiny baby.i didn't hear what was it... so I just walked... wonder so many peoples out here talking a bit aimlessly like him and after some time my earphone sung :) जाया वक्त क्यों शिकवो पे करे

अधूरी हसरते दर पे है खड़ी| .

To entertain people I don't recognize how to deal with that.i  I don't aspect anything but the independent breath and as much as possible very humble vision with life's gain my need stops there ..Mortar and pestle its becoming new part of my vision. I still need to add some important things with me the dedication its not a different part when I walk when I seat its a need  for any happenings, The presence of mind, intuitiveness.It's an important thing to realize.I am afraid by seconds because they done very important changes in me.Sometimes you feel you are going to break all rules, but within a second you find yourself you already surrender and after you start to discover another one naturally.......... It's a struggle. I feel someone has to understand that it's a need basically.

Food, colors, subject to paint.Its secondary part or I could say everything is a secondary until I don't take each and everything under one roof as a priority..

Accidentally so many times i find some interesting things  ART HAVE THAT FLEXIBILITY AS A TREMENDOUS STRENGTH  .I always feel that flexibility and it gives me breath to think for creation .

The midnight moon through floating clouds my eyes don't deny I am watching same time blinking stars ....                                                                                                          

                                                                                                                              9\3\2014

हत्ती

Body lines are the most unique lines and the surprising part for me is that they are visible for me by there pressures of movements or maybe they are there for our easy as well as natural movement 

lines are = the detail shadows of skin .

                                                                    हत्ती
                                                 Dry pastel,ink, light red,water

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I know the one faith story :)

I know the one faith story about the god and I love that because there is so called God disappears. Its very simple faith story its about faith .From the kids mind when he is grown with the old lady's memorable incident , it's  somehow tells me about the faith  that  turns into her habit and then how we create stone sculptures to keep faith alive :) That's incredible  because that so called god also need something to keep alive their own presence. 
What I do  is Karma what I don't do is the habit of faith.But I believe  the old lady and kid . The reason is  I see some inspirations alive.

Day to Day Normal routine,

Day to Day Normal routine, 

Trying to understand 

With the help of creation.

People are more open to art .

People are more close with art .

Art now is a routine job somewhere.

Better I take shower with music .
And let my work
Under the shower.

And make my art as a serious activity. 

Not into just activity .

To learn something from searching .

Thinking about how
I merge .

My future married life Within it.
right now not sure about the fruit of
that life.
but,

 I need to turn that way.
life don't says rules
But ,
life have the connections in between

 The way my legendary did .
I believe .

 He was just an amazing with it.
I could say.
Its Incredible.

Still is So natural. 

So peaceful. 

So healthy. 

So down to earth
i feel.

 With the flame of light

Into the heart. 

He is a lesson.
I can't deny.

 He is giving me depth.

 He is giving me the strength.

 For,
to learn the iceberg from its root.

The life i could maybe
dedicate with passion 

But,
 The breath itself has its own feelings .
i feel.

The breath needs to sleep sex.

The breath needs to kiss of the Dawn.

The breath needs the heal of hands .

And the love.
Love
Is there Always alone for everything.

 Love is selfish. 

That I feel ,
At some point .

Because its needs something, someone 

There for sure.

And somehow because of that
I feel ,
Breath is pure. 

It takes all equal.

I don't understand art for alone .

I try to understand art ,

With selfies .

I try to create the magical essence.

WITHOUT ANY FEAR.
For them.

Who truly understands me .

AND gives me time to describe them,

How i am.

Acceptance has 

its own individual strength ,
It makes me free.
From unwanted worries

Somewhere.....

I have fear that

I die early,

Somewhere......
 i think

 i live enough too.

with no regrets

maybe the reason 

of 

I don't wanna left anything behind me.

carelessly.

The soul ,

The bones.

I have chance to create

Their to alive something.

Worries don't encourage to
Creation

Worries need's to turn
Into the energy,
The light.

Isn't it
That's call creativity too ?

Because i am not afraid to lost anything now.

and even i don't want to earn anything besides 

What i deserve.
WHAT I FEEL THROUGH.
The earning is me
loss the same.

Its already merge into me as a 

Creation.
I no need to worry.
Now from
Day to day normal routine